former flames
I had two serious online relationships before that didn’t work out because of the distance.
First one is a guy froom NZ, 2nd guy is from New Jersey.
NZ guy was inlove with me and I felt the same. We YM everyday when I get home. My lunchbreaks at work were spent chatting with him on GMail, since YM is restricted at the office. We lasted 6mos, It ended when he started asking me if I ever get lonely. I said “yes because youre not here I get lonely most of the time”. He asked again if I ver thought of dating someone, I said “ no, im inlove with you, why would I think of that?” He said he felt the opposite. He gets lonely all the time and he felt the need to date someone from there. Then a week after that I think, I received a text saying that he’s dating someone there and that he thought that I needed to know that.
Asshole. I was really hurt but I didn’t demand any explanation nor any heart to heart talk. I didn’t call him to ask why . When I got home I cried a lot. I cried infront of my sister’s pc, I was looking at his pictures from my files, I deleted an entire folder with all of his pictures, emails, poems in it. Then I moved on.
Second guy was New jersey guy. He’s obviously a lot older than me. I like the image that he tried to portray to me that time. Very masculine, yet very thoughtful and sweet. I cant explain it. He smokes, so he understands why I smoke. He used to call me his hunny bunny. I love him and he was inlove with me too. So I thought everything’s going my way.
Then he disappeared on me.
No message. No text. No email. No calls. No nothing.
I was hurt (again).
He said he realized he was way too old for me.
Moron.
I wrote him an email shortly after I received that offline message. Saying only this:
F*ck you. You can go to h*ll for all I care. Old f*rt.
Ok that was mean. :D I couldn’t take it back, I already sent it. I ws deeply hurt, please understand. But ive moved on again. But one thing that I will not forget about New Jersey guy was when he sent me something, followed by a phone call from him saying “go buy yourself something nice.” What a prince. LOL.
